Recovering from a Chaotic Month and Setting New Goals
Here's What I've Been Up To (and Why I Was Quiet)
Dearest gentle reader,
I’ve been missing for almost a month and a lot has happened since then. From the first line, you can guess that I watched Bridgeton Season 3. But other than that, this month has been weird and exhausting.
A lot has happened and I don’t know how to start, so I’ll start from the beginning.
From the very beginning of the last month, I was a part of a huge project at my work and that meant numerous trainings and finally, an exhausting 20-hour work day.
I am not even kidding. I was at work for 20 hours and then 2 hours worth of commute later, it took me 3 days to recover from this day alone. I also realized how important sleep is to me to function properly.
For a week after this, my head just won’t stop spinning and it was draining to do even the simplest of tasks.
Then, my sister-in-law lost her job. We had a little idea that it might happen but still, the actual thing came as quite a shock.
This made me hate my job even more because during such times you realize how much your life depends on the hands of other people, who can kick you out at any moment.
So, I am going to make drastic changes in my life this month and I’ll keep you updated.
Then, just 3 days after my sister-in-law lost her job, my brother got a new job in a new city. He left just this morning and even though I don’t live with him it feels weird that my baby brother is so big now that he has moved to a different city.
And, weirdly, I didn’t feel he had grown up when he got married because that was huge as well.
But I also have a confession.
I didn’t write to you because I wanted to take a break, not because of all the reasons I’ve mentioned above.
All the reasons are the reason I wanted a break, but still. I wanted to recharge and chill for a while. But unfortunately, the results were not as good as I had hoped.
It turns out that experts are right and a person functions the best when they follow a routine.
This break was not refreshing at all. I was filled with guilt for not writing and not doing something to move forward in my career as a writer. I was exhausted from all the overthinking because of some major life changes that occurred. And my mind was functioning on overload.
Also, Netflix and chill is not a good thing. Don’t do it. It’ll ruin your peace.
I wish I had binged on books instead of TV series and movies, but I can’t go back in time.
And one more thing…
I failed my 90-day challenge.
The 20-hour shift ruined my daily routine of writing, and I ended up not writing anything at all for 2 days. 2 days turned into 2 weeks and here I am :P
But I also have a piece of good news…
My husband crossed 2K followers on Medium this week and I am over the moon. He went from 0 to 2.5K followers in 8 months.
I can’t believe the student has surpassed the master (aka me). Turns out I know how to help someone else better than how to help myself 😝
And now, the future planning will start. You’ll hear from me as soon as I have a plan in place.
Until next time,
Sushmita 💙